After my stomach-melting, Legolas-meeting, first day on the town I had a reality check. And this is what it was: I can be anyone I want and even better I can be exactly who I always wanted to be. I’m sure I am not alone in getting stuck in a personality rut. You know what I mean, when you want to be different and change into a better version of yourself but it is just too hard. And you are afraid. And there is that god awful voice in your head saying, “You can’t.”
Like I told you all before, I was in a bit of a rut when I arrived in Sweden. I had a total of about two friends, no social life to speak of, my boyfriend was out of the country, and I was lonely. And after my first day, making what I hoped would be friends, I realized I could do it. I didn’t have to be the old me. I was completely and utterly free to change if I wanted. I didn’t have to show these new friends the old me.
That same night I took action after I met my new roommate.
*I hear keys jingling and luggage dumping over*
Me, "Hi!! You must be my roommate! I'm Emily." I said with a big smile.
Original roommate, "Uhhh.. Am I in the right room? Is this..emm... si-x-ty-wwwoon?"
At this point I was confused and concerned but assured her she had the right room. Original roommate says, "Oh I am sorry. I don't mean any offenses but I can't have a two-person room. I need a single room. I am working for my master's degree and I really need quiet. I have to go change this. Nice to meet you, sorry."
"Uh, oh! Ok well no problem I understand... Nice to meet you. Good luck. But come back if you need somewhere to stay tonight of course!"
"Yes. Well OK. Bye."--
Secretly I was excited because this meant Wobbly Girl and I could be roomies! Wobbly Girl's original room was a single room with a shared kitchen. She said she wasn't sure about having to share with so many people. So I thought, being genius me, ROOOMMMIIIEESSS FO LIFE!
I had only had a roommate the first semester of university so I thought it would be a great experience. We could be best friends and share clothes and Wobbly Girl seemed like a great fit. Ahh so naïve.
We worked it all out and Wobbly Girl and I became roomies and (if we weren't already) instant BFFs. That means best friends forever, if you didn't know. Don't get saucy with me I am just trying to be thorough and not expect everyone who reads this to know texting/online/IM shortcuts. Geez. So much for being polite..
And thus began the semester abroad… Wobbly Girl as my roomie, Legolas, Hottie-Tattoo-Guy, Lluis, and a whole band of international students as potential friends, ready to become the person I had always wanted to be—it was about to get epic. (And yes, I do realize how utterly cliché that sounds but I didn't realize it then.)